Today was an interesting day. I started a new chapter.
The freezing rain awoke me at 4am. I heard it beating across the window in my room. The wind was what disturbed me the most. I am afraid of wind. It took 2 hours to get back to sleep.
I dreamed I was being arrested by a woman I have wanted for such a long time, how-ever I have yet to meet her. She was the picture of perfection in all the wrong ways. My ways.
I had bought a bottle of Listerine whitening... and have stuck to the regiment of using it twice a day. No effect as of yet.
I packed my bag and off I went. The snow and freezing rain never gave up. Bowling for soup was in my ears. Why don't they release "I Ran" ? I wonder.
The day went by fine, all though in the back of my head I wanted Drew. How can I make such a thing come to light. Not even a romance... just a conversation over a good drink. Complete. Not obsession. I don't even watch her movies. Except for 40....
Any ...how..
I ran into Stella from Belgium at the beer store... her and I watched the Golden Globes... had a bath and are now preparing for bed.
Today was ok. Tomorrow.. I work on the future. tell that fucking producer I am not writing tonight. The man in my head scares me. He doesn't deserve to be glorified on the screen. To inflict his damage upon his audience. Why should he be brought to light? Answer me that.
Fuck him.
I love you all. Good night.
